Wednesday, August 17, 2016

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The Knighthood of Dillen
By G.C. Sheys


Chapter 1.  The Dream

So far Dillen Smith’s thirteen years of existence could be described largely as uneventful, even boring.  His daily routine consisted of going to school and coming home.  No wild parties.  No date nights.
His idea of fun was playing with his pets in the yard.
On the outside, Dillen looked like a typical thirteen-year-old. He was tall about 5’8” and lanky.  Everyday, he felt like he was growing although that could not be true because his height remained the same.  He acted a bit clumsy and awkward.  The awkwardness he attributed to his growing hormones.
His dark brown, short hair made him looked younger than thirteen years   He enjoyed playing ball games and computer games, just like any teen  But for the most part, he preferred to be alone and play with his pets- a ferret named Syber and a Guinea pig named Blossom.
His parents – Chris and Linda Smith – were supportive of his endeavors, which basically consisted of nothing since computer games and pet sitting (two of his favorite activities) were not exactly great accomplishments.
But his mom, Linda, always encouraged him to do something phenomenal. She told him to think outside the box.  Be his best self.  Conquer the mountains – whatever that meant.
Linda Smith grew up to be the family beauty.  She was used to being the center of everyone's attention. It was at thirteen, after all, that Linda started joining beauty pageants.  In her youth, she ruled the catwalk.  With her statuesque and thin frame, she caught the eyes of numerous talent scouts. She was a crowned beauty at a young age.  You could say that she was a social success.
Unfortunately, Dillen did not follow in Linda’s footsteps.  Nor did he inherit her social graces.  He was more like his dad – socially awkward and shy.
At forty-five, Linda still had her looks.  She was tall, slim and sported a wavy blonde hair.  Her hair used to be dark brown but she dyed it blonde.  She was a homemaker.  She had not worked since the day she got married.  She found working on top of doing the household chores too stressful.  And when she had Dillen, the more the chores stressed her.
Fortunately, her husband, Chris was moneyed.  Chris was the same age as Linda.  He did not grow up rich.  But he was a computer genius.  He could read and write computer languages like they were plain English.  He got paid huge money for his skills. That enabled him to give his family a comfortable lifestyle.
Chris and Linda met when Chris was tapped by the pageant committee to do some computer works for them.  The pageant needed a computer to be set up on stage to provide the backdrop for the gown and swimsuit competition. Chris, being a popular programmer, was the natural choice for the job.
Chris liked Linda from the get-go.  They had been inseparable ever since.
It was an odd pairing – a computer geek and a pageant winner.  People said they had nothing in common.  That their marriage would last, at most, a year.  But it had been fourteen years and their marriage was still going strong.
Dillen was proud of his parents. But his mom did not seem to reciprocate his feelings. Linda may not say much but Dillen could sense her disapproval of his reticent lifestyle.   She thought he should be a go-getter surrounded by real people not pets.  Her expectations on how Dillen should live his life clashed with his.

It was at his mom’s constant prodding to be somebody at the social scene that Dillen found himself imagining to be a knight, a hero or even an actor to make up for his feelings of inadequacy.  He wanted to be a knight because there was something dramatic about being one. Maybe because they ride a horse through the sunset.
A hero was, of course, hailed by everyone.  He thought it might be cool to be so admired.  Or maybe, he could be a famous actor adored by many.
Any one but himself because he thought he fell short of his mom’s grand expectations.
Dillen sighed.  If he could just do one spectacular thing, maybe his mom would be proud of him.  Sadly, he was just an ordinary boy.  Spectacular things did not happen to ordinary boys like him.
Dillen's introversion made Linda worried. And she had no qualms talking about it to her husband.

Dillen accidentally overheard his parents talked about him one day, as they watched television in the living room.  They didn't realize that he could hear them when he opened his bedroom door on the second floor.  

"Do you think our son has health problems we are not aware of?" His mom asked. 

"He's perfect. There's nothing wrong with our boy,”  his dad, Chris, assured his mom. 

Linda seemed unsatisfied with Chris’ answer, "it’s not what the teachers said.  They said he’s aloof, withdrawn, and unsociable.  He does not talk to people, just pets.”
“I don't see anything wrong with that.”
“Shy people do not reach their fullest potential.  That's what's wrong with that,” she lamented.
Unlike Linda, Chris could not see what the big deal was.  Shy or not, Dillen was perfect the way he was. Besides, he didn't want a son who was a social butterfly. "Maybe he's just an introvert,” he muttered a reply.

"He needs to get out of his shell.  In this case, get out of his room and hang out with boys or girls his age,” Linda said.
 "He'll outgrow this stage.  You'll see,” Chris said.  Chris had been an introvert all his life.  He turned out good despite being shy and withdrawn.  He had no doubt Dillen would too.


"I hope so." His mom said. She seemed to stifle a sob. 

"Why are you crying?”  Chris asked.  He thought his wife overreacted.

“I'm just worried for our son. He is our only son, you know.”

“There. There.  Don't worry about it.  He will turn out fine.  Everything will be alright,” he heard his dad said.

“We should have bought him those toy robots instead of letting him get pets.  Now, he's talking to the ferret and Guinea pig like they're real people.” Then as an afterthought, Linda asked, “Maybe we should get rid of those pets?" 

"The pets are his friends. Getting rid of them might make him depressed. Is that what you want?" 

"It might force him out of his shell.”
“That's not the way to do it.  It might make him rebellious.  Give him time. I'm sure Dillen will come around.”
Linda sighed. “I just hope this phase will be over soon." 

"It will be.  It will be,”  he heard his dad said repeatedly as if he too tried to convince himself to stay positive. 

When Dillen came out of his room, he pretended not to have heard the conversation between his parents.  He felt bad that he made them worry.  But he felt happy being himself. He could not be anyone but himself.   He did not see any problem with being an introvert either.

"Do you want to invite your friends for a sleepover?"  His mom asked when she saw him.   

'What friend?' Dillen thought.  “Not this time mom.  Maybe later,”  Dillen would say no each time. 




Despite Linda’s misgivings about his introversion, Dillen loved his uncomplicated life.  He lived simply.  No dramas. No adventures. No surprises.  He preferred it that way.
Well, it was mostly like that until, one day, he experienced something out of the ordinary. Dillen's peaceful existence, all of a sudden, went topsy-turvy.  He didn't realize it then but that day heralded a new beginning.  A world of adventure unknowingly opened up to him. In hindsight, he should have paid attention to the clues.  But he was too preoccupied with his troubles to notice them.
It all began with a weird dream. The first time he dreamt it, he thought he had gone crazy.  The details were a bit fuzzy since he had a hard time recalling them but he could remember a voice waking him up in the middle of the night.
“Dillen, wake up! Wake up!” a man’s voice could be heard pleading him.  He had been sleeping comfortably in his bed for several hours when the voice woke him up.
Dillen did not welcome this intrusion.  He hated to be woken up from deep slumber.  One of the most precious things he treasured in life was his sleep.  A man, especially a growing one, needed his sleep.  But the stranger seemed in need of help. He could not ignore a person in need no matter how much his body screamed for sleep.
He forced himself to wake up, if only to please the stranger.  He struggled to open his eyes. At first, he felt disoriented.  He couldn't remember where he was.  It was dark.  The only light he saw was from a distant street light.  It took several seconds to get used to the darkness. Then, it dawned on him that he was in his bedroom.
Dillen could see the man stood at the center of his room.  But the vision was not so clear.  Largely, because he was still sleepy and the room was dim.
He felt scared but sleepiness overtook the fear.  Also, he was curious to see the person who woke him up.  He wondered what the man was doing in his room.  He could not be a thief.  A thief would not wake up a homeowner.  But he could be wrong.  “Who are you?” Dillen mustered the courage to ask.
He could see that the man was dressed in metal gear from head to toe.  He looked like one of those horse-riding Knights from the Medieval.  His face was not covered by the metal gear. Dillen could see parts of his face illuminated by the street light, enough to give him an idea of how he looked like.
“I'm a knight.  I come from the past.  We need you Dillen.  Please help us,” the man pleaded.
 Dillen could hear the urgency in his voice.
“But I am not from the past.  I'm right here in the present,” he mumbled an incoherent reply. The drowsiness made him sound more like a drunk.  He struggled to keep his eyes open. But all his body wanted to do was fall back to sleep.  The bed just felt so inviting and comfy.
“You can go back to the past, Dillen.  You have the means to do so. All you have to do is accept the offer.  Please help us.”  With that, the voice faded away and the man vanished.
Dillen did not have a chance to ask questions.  He wa fast asleep.  But seconds later, he stirred wide awake.  He could not recall exactly what had transpired but he could remember seeing a man in his room just a minute ago. Instead, he found himself staring blankly at the wall.
‘Did he just dream all that…again?’ he wondered.
He had dreamt the same dream for ten nights in a row now. He did not know the guy. He had no idea why the man kept showing up in his dream.
At first, he shrugged it off as just an ordinary dream.  Maybe, it was a way for his tired body to cope.  But this had went on for far too long for him to ignore.  Besides, it was creepy!  The man did not seem evil but he did not welcome the intrusion night after night.
Dillen was resolved to put a stop to this dream.  He needed to act on it.  Fortunately, the next day was a Saturday.  There were no classes. He could talk to his mom about the recurring dream. Perhaps, she could help him.
He glanced at the clock on the side table.  It was ten minutes to two in the morning.  Too early to get up.  Dillen went back to sleep. He was dead to the world in no time.


The next day, he talked to his mom about the recurring dream that kept him awake at night.
 “The guy looks like someone from the olden times, he wakes me up in the middle of my sleep every night.  He has done this for ten nights in a row now,” he complained.
 “Does he look familiar to you?” his mom asked.
“No, I never saw him before.”
“That sounds creepy! Does he scare you?”
“Actually no.  He seemed like a nice person.”
“What did he say to you?”
“He wants me to go back to the past to help him.”
“The past? It is not possible to go back to the past. It does not make sense at all. Well, dreams don't make sense after all.”
“I wonder what the dream meant?”
“Next time, why won't you ask him how you could go back to the past and help him? Maybe that will answer your question on its meaning.”
“I get so groggy, I often forget what to ask.”
“Maybe your subconscious mind is telling you something. Or, the message holds some clues to your past life or your future.”
“What clues?”
“I don't know son.”
“I have no idea what the dream meant. I just want it to stop.”
“We should go see a therapist next week. He will have much better idea on how to interpret your dream.”
“Will the dream stop if I see a therapist?”
“Maybe so.  At least, the therapist can tell you how to.”
“Okay.”
“If it makes you feel any better, I will go check on you several times tonight.  Maybe if you have company, he won't show up.”
Dillen nodded.  “Maybe so.  I just hope he won't show up tonight. It's freaking me out.”
“If he will, call me.”
“I will. Thanks mom.”
“Anything for you, son.  Don't worry about it.  It's just a dream.  If he meant to harm you, he would have done so ten days ago. We'll figure out a way to make it stop.”
Dillen heaved a sigh of relief.  Indeed, if he was a bad person, he would have harmed him since day one. “Thanks mom.”
“Why won't you set the table?  Lunch will be served soon.” Linda said, “ and oh, before I forget, could you please bring this green bean casserole and pecan pie to our neighbor, Mr. Ridley?  He loves green beans and the pie  I'm sure he will love both dishes.”
Mr. Bach Ridley was their seventy-nine year old, widower neighbor who lived alone in his house.  Dillen's mom would sometimes give him food. Perhaps, to cheer him up because he seemed so solitary. They had been neighbors since Dillen could remember. 

Mr. Ridley often saw Dillen when he would leave for school. Or, when he got home from school.  The old man had a habit of sitting by the porch each afternoon until the sun sets.  He did not talk a lot. He liked to be by himself, much like Dillen. Mr. Ridley would wave his hand at him every time he walked past his house. That was largely the extent of their interaction. Despite Mr. Ridley’s aloofness, Dillen grew fond of him. 
Being next door neighbors, Mr.  Ridley was invited to every single one of Smiths' Thanksgiving and Christmas parties.  If he could not show up for some reason like an illness, Linda would ask Dillen to bring him some food.
During Thanksgiving, Dillen would bring a huge slice of turkey, mashed potatoes and gravy, corn, meatloaf, cheesecake and his favorite, sweet yams.  On Christmas, he would get a slice of ham, cornbread, potato salad, baked beans and chocolate cake.
Dillen remembered the dishes he brought because he helped prepare those foods. Also, they prepared the same foods year after year for each occasion.  Which was a good thing because he only ate some of those dishes on those occasions.  It made him look forward to those days.

Dillen went to Mr. Ridley's house and knocked on the door.  He brought the casserole and pie with him.
“Who is it?”  Mr. Ridley asked.
“It's Dillen! Mom asks me to bring you some food.”
“Come in Dillen.”
When Dillen stepped inside the house, he saw Mr. Ridley sitting on the dining table, all by himself.  He had a loaf of bread, a stick of melting butter and a cup of dark coffee on the table in front of him.  “You're just in time for my lunch,” Mr. Ridley said.
Lunch didn't seem much for Mr. Ridley.  Dillen was glad he brought him some real food.  The old man needed proper nourishment especially at his age.
Dillen laid the food on the table. “Mom knows you love green beans.”  The bean casserole was in a small, rectangle-shaped, disposable silver serving dish.  The pecan pie was in a small, round-shaped, disposable silver dish. It was a lot of food for one person. Mr. Ridley would probably eat the food for a day or two.
“And you bring pecan pie too.  This is one of my favorites.”  Mr. Ridley declared.  “These are a lot of food son.  Please tell your mom thank you.  I truly appreciate her generosity.  And thank you too for bringing the food to me.”
“No problem at all. Mom loves to cook and share her food to you.”
“She's a good woman. She looks after me like I'm her dad.”
“She does look up to you like a father.  And we are happy to help.  You need all the help you can get.”
“Do you have grandparents?”  Mr. Ridley asked.
“I do but they live so far away. I barely see them except on special occasions.”
“I won't mind if you call me grandpa.  And it does get hard around here since I'm alone.” Mr. Ridley said as he glanced at the bread and coffee on the table. “I meant to cook something for lunch but my gout bothers me.”
“Don't you have children or grandchildren?”
“I do.  But, like you, they live far from me.  They have their own families now too. They're too busy to come and see me.”
“If you need help Mr. Ridley, you can always count on me.”
“Nah, it's ok. I can manage.  I'll be fine.”
“I don't want you to think that you're a bother.  You will never be a bother. I'll be glad to help.”
“Thank you Dillen.  You're a good boy, son. Your parents are lucky to have you.”
“Thank you for the compliment.  I'd better get going now.  Mom will serve lunch soon.”
“Thank you Dillen.”
“You're welcome.” As Dillen turned to go, he accidentally brushed off one of the framed pictures on top of Mr. Ridley's table.  The picture frame fell to the floor.
“Oops.  I didn't mean to do that.  I'm sorry.  I'm so clumsy,” Dillen apologized.
Good thing the picture frame did not break.
Dillen stooped down to pick it up.  When he looked at the picture on the frame, he had the surprise of his life.  His heart skipped a beat.  The man on the picture was the same man who appeared in his dreams for ten nights now!  What were the odds that he would find him in Mr. Ridley's house?
“Mr. Ridley, can I ask you something?” Dillen asked as he picked up the framed picture and stood up.
“Yes of course.  What is it?”
“This man in the picture.  Do you know who he is?”
“He is my friend.  Someone I know from the past. Why do you ask?”
“He appears in my dream for ten nights in a row now. Could you please tell me his name? Maybe it will help solve the mystery.
“His name is Artos.  I haven't seen him for years.  I was fifteen years old when I last saw him.  I kept that picture as a souvenir.”
“Do you know where I can find him? Or, at least, contact him?”
“No. The last time I saw him I was in Boston at that time. I never talked to him after that.”
“Is there a way that you can contact him?”
“No.  I can't.”
“Do you know his last name? I can search his contact details online.”
“Unfortunately, I don't know his last name.”
Dillen sighed.  All he got was a name.  There were so many Artos all over the world.  How would he find him? “I've been wondering about this dream and the guy.  I don't know what to make of it,” he confessed.
“What do you see in your dream?”
“This guy is asking me for help.  He said he's from the past.  Whatever does that mean?”
“He could be in trouble. And, he literally needs your help.  That could be a possibility.”
“But how can I help him? I don't even know who or where he is.”
“He will manifest in due time.”
“Do you think so?”
“He will. Just be patient,” Mr. Ridley seemed so confident.
“I hope so.”
“Let me know if you dream of him again tonight.”
“I will.” Dillen replied, “I’d better get going.  Mom is waiting for me.”

During lunch, his mom asked him questions but Dillen's mind was on the picture. Artos – the guy’s name.  He thought of the name over and over. He needed to find out more about this guy.
“Are you alright son?” Linda asked.
“Yes just wondering about my dream.”
“Just let me know if he shows up again tonight.”
“I will.”
After lunch, Dillen headed to his room.  He used his tablet to search for “Artos”online.  The search produced numerous results.  He clicked on the images to see if they resembled the man in his dreams.
The search was not successful. Dillen did another search.  This time he keyed in the words “Artos knight” mainly because the man looked like a knight.  The search results showed images of various men.  He kept searching through the images until he stumbled on a knight who looked similar to Mr. Ridley's friend, Artos.
The result showed an image of a knight who looked like the man in his dream.  According to the search results, the man was the great grandson of King Arthur of the Knights of the Round Table.  What made it so surprising was his birthdate.  He was born in the 1800’s.  That would make him more than three centuries old!  It could not possibly be the same Artos whom Mr. Ridley befriended.  Or, the one who appeared in his dreams. He could not be three hundred years old.
Dillen got confused more than ever.  Why would a three hundred-year-old man pay him a visit?
He could not find immediate answers to his questions.  Perhaps, his dream meant nothing.  Maybe, if he would forget about it, the guy would not come back.

That night, the dream that Dillen dreaded didn't recur.  Surprisingly, the next day on a Sunday night, he didn't dream of Artos too. He happily reported to his mom that the dreams stopped. He also told Mr. Ridley on Monday, before he left for school, that the dream didn't recur.
“Good for you.” Mr. Ridley said.
“I think talking about the dream helps put a stop to it. I'm glad it's over. I got scared seeing the same dream again and again.”
“It could be a sign Dillen.”
“A sign?”
“Of something bigger.  That you're meant to do something big in the future.”
“What could that be?”
“I think we will find out soon enough.”
Mr. Ridley's words puzzled Dillen.  But he didn't give much thought to them as he needed to hurry for school.

Monday, January 30, 2012

Guardian Angel

This is a true story.

I read an article about guardian angels in a newspaper sometime in 1998. I found the story very interesting that is why I was able to commit this to memory.

The author is a girl studying in an exclusive school. She was intrigued by the idea of a guardian angel. So while driving on her way to school she whispered a prayer asking God to manifest to her the guardian angel.

Upon arriving in school, she followed the required steps to enrol. To her surprise, none of her friends bothered to come near her and offer to help even though they bumped with each other at the hallway.

Later that day, after she finished with the enrolment process, she approached one of her friends and asked why they seemed to be avoiding her.

To her amazement, her friend replied "We don't want to bother you and your date."
"Date? What date are you talking about? I was alone the entire day!" She quickly retorted.
"You can't be serious! Then who's the good-looking guy hovering near you?" her friend asked.

Not contented with her friend's explanation she called the rest of her friends to ask them the same question. And all seven of her friends said the same thing.

She was accompanied by a tall, good-looking guy all day!Thinking that he was her date, they did not bother to go near her. Even her classmates who saw her said the same thing.

The author surmised that the guy she was with, whom everybody saw except her, was probably her guardian angel. She prayed for the angel to manifest and God must have answered her prayers. And she excitedly shared her story to show that angels are indeed Real!

After reading her story, naturally I was curious about it. So I muttered a short prayer on my way to work asking God to manifest to me my guardian angel.

As the day dragged on, my hopes gave way to disappointment as the day seemed to end with no angel in sight.

Then a few minutes before the office closed, my officemate walked in with this beautiful carved statue. She put it on top of my table and said that she was giving it to me as a gift.
Guess what it was?

It was an angel! A cherubim actually. She was no more than 10 years old, very pretty, very sweet-looking creature.  I almost cried upon seeing the statue.

When my excitement subsided, I inquired from my officemate why she thought of giving me (of all things!) an angel figurine?

She replied matter-of-factly, "Well, I passed by St. Paul's to buy a rosary on my way here. Then my eye caught sight of this beautiful angel. The first thing that came to my mind was you. So I decided to buy it and give it to you. It was just one of those spur-of-the-moment thing. An instinct, I guess."

I nodded. Then smiled widely and thanked her. Deep in my heart I know it wasn't just an instinct. It was my angel calling out to her!

Good vs Evil

A friend called me the other night because she felt utterly sad. She asked me why do bad people seem to get away with being bad? They seemed to be happier, more successful, popular and moneyed than godly people.

Ah! The age-old question that did not seem to wane thru time. I wracked my brains for an answer. But came up with none coz this proved to be a puzzle for me too. I've seen people who did ghastly acts yet they seemed to prosper some more. Godly people, on the other hand, who would not compromise principles seemed to be less blessed materially or in social status.

So I ponder on this for awhile. Trying to come up with something- anything. Then out of nowhere an idea struck me like a bolt of lightning.

Bad people indeed seemed to have it all - wine, women and song. While godly people scraped for what is left, these 'bad people' seemed to have everything in excess (not that all rich people are bad!)

You see the operative word is seemed. They seemed to have it all. What seems to be does not necessarily mean what is real. And that's the world they lived in - unreal.

Yes, it's true they drove fast cars, go out with fast women and lead a fast life. And all of that is real. None of it is imagined. But what they failed to see is that life on earth is but temporary.
Nothing lasts.

We are all here to prepare for eternal life. And what we do here could spell the difference between eternal damnation or eternal bliss!

Yes, in plain terms - hell or heaven!

Ungodly people may seemed more successful because they are driven by worldly desires. They want the here and now regardless of the consequences. And in the process reaped all the worldly pleasures - only.

Godly people, on the other hand, know that everything we see here is not only temporary but also a test for our souls. A test that enables only the deserving to reap heaven.
What you sow, you reap.

So what's seeming success in the long run isn't success after all. Real success is in pleasing God and spending not just a lifetime but an eternity with Him.

A Tribute to Friendship

“I love you not because of who you are,
But who I BECOME when I am with you….”

I never believe in coincidences.
I believe God puts in our paths
the people He meant us to meet,
HE has a way of bridging the gap
between strangers.
Of letting their paths cross
in the most unexpected places.
In that infinitesimal moment
our lives touch
deep bond forms
that changes us for the better.
Such is the beauty of friendship.
Friends are genuine souls
that unfailingly reflect what we value in ourselves.
The instant we lay eyes on them
We know that we belong.
It is the heart calling out to another heart.
The one who answers become our heart’s keeper.
Kindred spirits.
Friends.
We love them
because we know that beyond the cold exterior
or the enchanting facade
one can’t disguise the Goodness of their hearts.
Truth and goodnesss
will irresistibly draw us to our Friends.
And these things
will make the friendship last.

-by Me

Five Details

A new pair of tennis shoes, a shiny gold chain, a spilled hot mocha, a freshly made bed, and the smell of the world after a rain storm.

Gem was in a quandary.
She had not been feeling well these past few days. Well, for the longest time actually. She was alone at home. Her husband, Frank, was out to work. She had been spending the whole day cleaning the house. Satisfied with her efforts, she got herself a hot mocha to drink. She used to share hot mocha drink with Frank. But not anymore. She sighed. Then she sat by the table and mulled. She felt lonely.
She instinctively looked through the window.
Outside the world looked dark and dreary, as dark and dreary as she felt inside. It rained so hard the whole day.
‘Nature empathizes with me.’ She thought with a sinking feeling.
It had been her natural state for the past days, weeks even.
She could not tell exactly when it started - this depression, this gnawing anxiety. An amalgamation of events led her to this bleak day.
It probably escalated when she and Frank quarreled a few days back. They had petty quarrels even before. Gem somehow felt she was at the end of her rope.
She needed Frank.
But then, she also needed something more from him.
Frank’s love had been a beckon of hope for her all through these years. Somehow as the years went by, the light extinguished.
She woke up one day and the love was gone!
They must have drifted apart somewhere along the way without their knowledge. The bond they shared eroded as the years passed.
Gem sighed. Her hands shook. She spilled the hot mocha on the white tablecloth, much to her dismay. She quickly wiped off the spill. Then hastily picked up the stained cloth and soaked it in water.
As she headed to the laundry room, her eye got caught by Frank’s new pair of tennis shoes, idly leaning against the wall.
Gem felt a stab of pain through her heart. They bought the tennis shoes together because Frank wanted to teach her to play tennis.
She declined.
Frank could not handle the rejection. They quarreled and now they were no longer in speaking terms.
It was all her fault! But what else could she do? She could not feel the chemistry between them anymore. Their lives fell into a predictable pattern. They were so comfortable with each other that they took each other for granted. Gone were the days that they would go out on a date. Frank would not even say ‘I love you’ to her like he used to. They did not talk as often as before.
It was getting harder and harder to be around Frank. She did not want to pretend anymore.
She didn’t want to cry. She tried to hold back the tears. Yet, the tears came streaming down.
Gem heard a car pulled through the driveway. She glanced at the clock. It was 6 p.m. It must be Frank, home from work.
Gem hurriedly wiped off the tears from her eyes. Then she proceeded to do the laundry. Frank came inside. Gem briefly looked at him.
Frank nodded in her direction. She didn’t respond.
She went to the kitchen to prepare dinner.
Frank went to the bedroom to change.
Frank came out a few minutes later in white shirt and white short pants. Frank, just like Gem, was in his late thirties. They had been married for a little over five years. Frank still looked handsome despite his age. His tall, medium-built frame looked perfect in the clothes he was wearing. Unlike other men, Frank did not have the ugly bulge on his stomach. Frank took good care of himself.
“Hi Gem.” He greeted her as he settled on the sofa.
He used to call her ‘sweetie’ now it was Gem. She sighed.
“Hi.” Gem answered wryly.
The dinner table was set.
“Shall we eat?” Frank asked.
“Yes.”
But Frank did not move from where he sat. He looked at her with those deep, probing eyes, then queried, “Is everything okay?”
“Yes.”
“You don’t seem okay.”
Gem would have wanted to shout ‘it’s none of your business!’ but she kept her emotions in closed lid. “I am.”
“I’ve been wondering about this for days.” Frank slowly said. “Tell me something. I want you to be honest.”
Gem nodded.
“Are you tired of me?” he asked squarely.
Gem was momentarily taken aback. It was a direct question that demanded an equally direct answer.
Gem sighed. She looked away. She could not bear to hurt Frank. But she needed to do this. “Yes.” She answered softly.
Frank did not seem surprise at Gem’s revelation. “I could tell”, was all he said.
Gem waited more from him but when none came, she asked “So what do you intend to do about it?”
“Nothing.”
“Nothing?”
“Yes. Nothing. Am I supposed to do something?”
“Yes!” Gem shrieked out. “For our marriage’s sake you are SUPPOSED to do something about it. I EXPECT you to do something about it!” She was shouting at the top of her lungs now. What was worse, she was way past caring.
Frank was caught off-guard. He was momentarily at a loss for words. When he regained his poise, he managed to ask “What do you want me to do?”
“I want you to look deeper into yourself and know where you failed me.” Gem said in no uncertain terms.
“But honey, you need to know, whatever grief I caused you, I didn’t do it intentionally. I love you all this time.” Frank said empathically.
“I wish I can believe you, Frank.” Gem said in hushed tone.
Then she walked away, feeling the weight of the world on her shoulders. Frank looked at her turned back for a long time.
Gem felt a bit guilty for telling him off. She wondered if she had hurt him.
Gem didn’t speak. She sat down in her chair and ate silently. Frank sat and ate with her. He too was silent. She wondered what Frank was thinking. If he thought he could woo her back then he was wrong. This problem had dragged on for so long, it was beyond repair. If she would not act soon, the problem would occur over and over again. A vicious cycle. She felt obliged to put a stop to it right here, right now.
Frank tried to cheer Gem up. He tried to crack jokes to ease the uncomfortable silence that enveloped them. Looking at Frank’s earnest eyes and infectious smile, she could not help but play along. At least they would be a couple for one day - one final time?
For the umpteenth time, Gem felt like crying.
“You’re not eating.” Frank said.
Gem forced a spoonful of lasagna in her mouth.
After dinner, Frank went to the bedroom again.
Gem stayed at the living room.
Minutes later, Frank went out of the room. He bid Gem goodbye and kissed her on the forehead. “I’m going to the get something at the store.”
Gem forced a smile as she bid him goodbye.
She went inside the bedroom to get the dirty laundry in the hamper. She noticed the freshly made bed. In her rush to get things done, she forgot to attend to the bed. Frank must have noticed it and made the bed himself.
She noticed a letter neatly folded on top of her dresser when she passed by. She opened it and read the letter. It was from Frank, addressed to her.

“Dear Gem,

I know what you are going through, honey. Whatever I did, to bring you to this point, I apologize. I didn’t mean it. I wanted to give you heaven but I didn’t know that you are in hell. I respect whatever decision you can come up with, as long as you will be happy.”

Gem had to pause as tears blurred her vision, then resumed reading:

“I will not justify my actions. I am not perfect. I admit I have wronged you sometimes. But before you decide and seal our fate, please take a moment to look back what we once had. Remember I may not always show you love but I was there through the worst times.

When your car stalled, I drove all the way to where you are to fetch you.
When you fell ill, I held you in my arms to soothe your pain.
When you failed at something, I was there to comfort you.
When you felt bad, I would make you feel better.
When you want to cry, I brought a smile to your face.
You see, after all this, I know I cannot let you go. Not because I’m selfish but because I worry who will take care of you? Until such time that you will find a man who will love you as much as I do, I don’t have the heart to let you go.
I gave you a shiny gold chain the night you said ‘yes’ to my marriage proposal. I will give you another one tonight. If you take it, it means you agree to stay. If not, I understand.”

Love you honey,

Frank

Gem cried as if she had never cried before. How many times had she overlooked Frank’s gesture of love? She wanted more from him but she realized she should be more for him.
Gem went out of the bedroom to look for Frank. She saw him standing by the door, looking so uncertain. He was worried. Gem could tell. He was holding a tiny red box in his hand. When Gem approached, Frank opened the box. The shiny gold chain glittered under the light. Gem’s tears fell in quick succession. Frank looked at her. She took a few steps forward then took the chain from the box.

Frank smiled. Gem smiled at him. She nodded in silent agreement as he fumbled on the lock and struggled to put the chain around her neck. They hugged for a long time.

Outside, the world was a picture of stillness. The smell of the world after a rain storm pervaded. Finally, the storm has passed.

-by Me

The Languages of Love

I read this very interesting article about loving a person.

It says that there are five languages of love or simply the ways of showing you love a person. And the object of your affection responds to the language that appeals to him or her the most. They believe that you love them once they see you do one or a couple of these things.

What are these five ways?

1. giving gifts
2. spending time
3. service
4. physical touch
5. communication

Giving gifts - some people appreciate receiving gifts. Now don't get me wrong, I'm not implying that your loved ones are materialistic but it simply means that for them the language of love is in giving or receiving for that matter. If they see you making the effort to give them something, they love you all the more for that because to them giving equals loving. See what I mean? So if you give, it is a sign that you love them. It is the language of love that they understand the most. It doesn't matter if you give them a rare pink diamond or a common single rose. The value of what you give doesn't count here but the act of giving itself. Giving in the long run is not merely an act but a way of imparting our selves to others. So give and you will be blessed with love abundantly!

Spending time - some of our loved ones respond most or appreciate you more if you spend time with them. They believe that they are precious because you find the time to be with them. It is not necessarily the quantity of time but quality time. There is a huge difference between the two. You may spend 24/7 with that person and they still don't feel loved. Quality time is spending time with the loved ones, even just a few minutes a day, affirming your love to them by words or actions or even sharing comfortable silence. Indeed, silence could speak volumes. Show your love make them feel loved every time you spend with them and they will love you all the more for it.

Service - I am not referring to the over-the-top, grand kind of service. Service is simply helping a loved one. It could be carrying the luggages for her or him. The shopping bags. Running errands. Picking up the laundry on the way home. Opening the door. Making a cup of coffee. Anything, even the simplest things that make life a bit comfortable for him or her. Some people appreciate these more than diamonds or other expensive things. So don't forget service as a way of expressing love.

Physical touch - your loved one could be the kind who loves holding hands, kissing, touching the arm, hugging, etc., etc. The etcs. mean I am giving you room to be creative. Let's face it touch is one of the most important love language. It is probably the most basic too. Who doesn't want to be hugged or kissed or hold hands with? But some people want it more or at a higher degree than others. So if your loved one prefers physical touch as an expression of love, it doesnt hurt to hug or kiss her/him every now and then.

Communication - they say communication is the lifeblood of every relationship. It's true. It can create havoc or bliss on your relationships. Some loved ones prefer communication as a way of demonstrating your love to them. They love to hear ' i love you' or be told that they are beautiful or that you love them just the way they are. Just a few words from you could feed their hunger for love. So, communicate LOVE. Say it. Don't let the person guessing. They might not respond to actions or gifts. But simple ' i love you' could do the trick!

There you go. The five secrets of loving and expressing love. Hope the object of your affection will finally understand what you've been saying all along and respond accordingly. It doesn't hurt to try them. Go on and spread love!

Sunday, January 29, 2012

The Power of Prayers

Prayers are the most powerful tool available to man.  A deep, heartfelt prayer can drive problems, troubles, difficulties, obstacles away.  The operative word though is 'deep' prayer. It is not enough to pray perfunctory prayers or mumble a few religious words then expect a miracle to happen.

Prayers do not merely pay lip service to God. They are wrench from the deepest core of a person's soul. It is the soul speaking to the Perfect Being.

Prayer is an effective antidote to all negativity we encounter.
And that is a proven fact.

Even doctors and scientists marvel at its effectiveness. Comparing a group of patients who are prayed upon and practices daily prayer methods to those who do not have prayer support, results showed that more patients who got prayer support got cured than those whodidn't.

This is a fact long adhered to by the religious and long-disputed by science. But now science and religion have arrived at the same conclusion and that is "Prayer works". Why does this happen is another fact subject to dispute. But both scientists and religous admit that prayers work because having faith that you get cured or you will overcome obstacles is winning half thebattle. The remaining 50% depends on numerous variables: medicine, money, technology, etc., etc.,etc.

There is something about prayer that makes the human spirit indomitable. That gives it strength, hope and determination. In essence, it is a way to communicate with God. In order to gain a new lease on life, we need to go back to its Source. And the Source will never let us down. That is the basic premise behind prayers. And the reason why it is effective - be it in illness or on everything else.